birthday list

i will not be afraid of the terrors by night. i will not fear the comings of day. i wrote that for a project. but itis not easy. the sounds at night scares me. and what's unknown tomorrow makes me afraid. the bible says, Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. -Matthew 6:34(NIV) it's difficult not to worry. as much as i would like to place everything in His hands, it's difficult. dear God, teach me to committ my life in Your hands. i fall sick when i worry. i mean really worry about something. there's just too much this week to worry abt. my bro came back this week, results released this week. there's the ye04 plan that i have no idea how to do but have to present this week. my grandfather is going for a short trip this week.

i dont know how to continue. blehz

the dammit fever refuse to go

the sick feeling is stuck in my stomach

my block nose is back because i cried

i hate my bro

the lights are on

the tv is loud

iam just short of slamming the door

iam fuming mad

after falling sick. meis confident to say i think i got more friends. or rather i didnt realise those people are around me.

the fever has subsided, the block nose is cleared up, mood is better and i wanna thank my bro for the tshirt he bought for me. it's very very nice. thank you!

anyway.. forgot to add. i love the balloon and the book!! but where is my flowers and fruit basket?? haha. i am just kidding. you know how much i love you =)

i had visitors today. myxiaodi and lene. thanks peeps. really appreciate the visit. soz my houseis in such a mess, cant let you in.

another thing to be thankful for. i dont have to take sub papers if i had seen my results correctly. hahaha. hahaha. a moment of elation.

still sick though. cant bring myself to do the ye'04 plan. supposed to email to pastor kenneth tonight. dear God, you brought me so far. take me a little further. thanks dude =) for everything

me is sick

blood was boiling a few days back. but sighz. he deserved it. cant complain.

blood still boiling now. hahah. the show i stayed up all night to watch had an ending that i didnt like.

blood will be boiling a few days later. results will be out on friday and iwill blame myself for not working hard enough.

sighz.

i have good days too.

i went shopping with mum yesterday. well the main idea's not abt shopping. we had dinner at a market/food centre at chinatown. there were lotsa people. what caught my eyes were the many elderly people with their elderly friends sitting drinking and talking.

then i wondered to myself. will i have friends that will sit and chat with me when i am old. it's quite a scary thought then because calling people to ask them out for lunch scares me. 'cept for lene. thanks girl, for all the endless lunches and dinners we had together.

i find that calling people takes alot of courage. at least for me. no matter how close i am to you. 'cept for lene again. haha. what do you say after.. hi, hows life? i find silence with another person awkward. on the phone, on the bus, in the same studio. i cant live with it.

kaez. i shall work hard. find some courage. call a few friends. pray for me. =)