liars, lies, deceit, pretense. i shall learn to be smarter. like junhao says, not all people will be nice just because you are nice. and to quote rongchang, dont be stupidity. though i disagreed totally during the camp, it's definitely a more subtle way of telling myself not to be too stupid.

on a lighter note
camp was good. i think. cant be definite nowadays. i think i falter too easy.

xiangyun was a cheerful worker. thanks girl. you are wonderful. and for goodness sake. call me by my name kaez.

some people were disgusting during camp. but some were really sweet. the kids, most of them, were really nice. got to know some of them better. especially the sunday school kids. used to think that our SS kids were abit antisocial, but over the last few days, i saw what was antisocial and arrogant. disgusting.

had fun. it was the most relaxed camp i have ever attended. half the time was spent sleeping, another quarter eating and chatting, the other quarter bathing, interacting with the boys and girls. i slept a lot. haha.

lost my temper sometimes, talked a lot, laugh lots too, learnt even more.

what's real? i dont know. i just wanna spend more time at home. with my mum. i dont wanna go for any more camps. i dont wanna miss dinner at home. i dont wanna hang around the streets not knowing what i want. i dont wanna feel carsick in those endless bus journeys i take. i dont wanna...

talked a while in church. was really nice. talking to other people make me feel good. because each sentence shared seems to teach me so much. lots of people taught me. hope one day i will be able to share in this way that others will value. meanwhile. i will quiet. at least i will try. nitez. off to bed =)