birthday list

in bold. coz i feel like it. bleh.

this is for DENISE! WHERE'S MY EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY PRESENT???!! i am turning nineteen soon.. hahaha. i am just kidding. i always get very impressed with those people who celebrate their birthdays with very huge parties. got over those parties in primary one.

this is for ian. i dont feel like going to YE too. sometimes kenneth makes it so tiring to go worship God. there was some commotion between him and rongchang and doreen. it was so comical, he was practically screaming and i mean SCREAMING at the top of his voice. haha.

my mum treats me like a kid too. if i am not home by eleven, she will just keep calling and calling. i havent been out late lately. you understand, how difficult is it to meet up with friends and really talk. and she will come out and check on me once in a while when i am doing my work. sighz. she will ask me where am i going, who i am with, what time am i reaching home.

it's so frustrating, like she doesnt know i am grown up. able to make decisions for myself, good ones too. but we must really know that parents do it with good intent.. so be more forgiving kaez, and just dont treat your kids like that in the future.

oh yah.. before i forget.. AUNTIE DORIS, YOU ARE THE BEST!!! thanks lots and lots.

i went to mail something today, i cant help but laugh when the auntie asked me what is it.

went to report the loss of my library card. just wanna say "thank you" to serenne teng, the person at the counter at central community library today. thanks for being so kind!!

cant remember what i wanna write. a little unhappy today.

i remember now. sorry angelene. i dont mean the tone i was using on the phone yesterday. everyone is entitled to their own opinion and i respect that. i am sorry kaez. i am not angry. not angry AT ALL. really. friends will be friends and something stupid shouldnt get into the way. i made stupid mistakes before, dont want it to happen again. wanna come COGS for service tomorrow? call me?

i know what am i sad about. one of the fishes died. the other one feels like it's dying too. i always hated the fishes. i am scared of them. very very. but i feel like i am the only one feeling the loss. sad. they dont owe us anything, y'noe. if we cannot or cant be bothered to take care of them, then dont keep them. i am unhappy with my brother because of his heck care attitude. sighz.

i lost my wallet. hahha. ian, i can be the official scatterbrain in YE. i am so sad. it contains so much things, and so much money. it's one of those days that i ask my mum for money. my ic, art friend membership card (haha, i am buying my portfolio tomorrow there), my broken atm card, a nice old friends are best friends card from denise.

i am not getting a new wallet. coz i dont wanna be reminded of my lost wallet. i'll just stuff money in my pocket next time. like chris lee from duffy. haha. lame.

boo

hahahaha. i am back. this is a want post. it lists all my wants. i think it's okay if we want more than our needs, but it's dependant on what our heart desires, and how we get about achieving it. ok, that's not justification for all my wants. just wanted to list what i want. sighz. all that about WANTS and not NEEDS.

1. student internship programme (SIP) company. the dateline is 15 march 2004
2. i want a new handphone. not that i need it, but i think the one i am using is ugly. hahaha. but i am not complaining, my mum gave it to me
3. i want a metal developing tank. reasons being the plastic one is bulky and not as cool. sighz. what kind of person is me. but i convinced myself not to get the metal one since it's four times the cost of a plastic one
4. i want a plainsunset CD
5. new camera!!!! SLR, medium large format, leica, nikon, digital, digital SLR, hey.. i welcome anything, anything at all. even lomo
6. new bag. i saw this girl with a levi's (pronounced as leevees in finland) bag. it has graphic prints on it and it's rectangular in shape. it's exactly what i want. especially now i have this liking for graphic prints. hahha. but i dont see it in shops. sighz. wont buy it anywayz.
7. new shoes. no real need. just wants.
8, my all time want. could be counted as a need too. a luxurious one. a apple powerbook G4. would really appreciate the ability to work outside of home and apple supports design work better than PC
9. hair cut hair cut hair cut. my hair on my head is growing like weed. i need a low maintainence haircut. something like what i have now. maybe shorter
10. books! graphic design book. children's story books. IdN magazines. photography books.. the list is endless. i like this particular one. don mccullin. heart of darkness. it's out of publication. hmm.. maybe i should try ebay. don mccullin makes me cry whenever i see the pictures he taken. he was primarily a war photographer. he captures pictures that touches your heart and then you sigh why is there war. but he does more peaceful things now
11. holidays! i wanna go on a long long trip. to europe. maybe italy? shanghai, china?
12. makeover for my room. i need to get rid of lots of stuff. maybe the bed even. it's pigsty for a room now.

kaez. that's the end of my ugly want list. other than the first one.. nothing's really important. i am fine without any of those anywayz. still a happy crazy person who hopes in the Lord because the real things come from Him. love, peace, joy... you just have to agree with that.

have to go for meeting now.... blehz.