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have you ever wanted company, like someone to hang out with for a while before you do other stuff? or you just want to walk around with people. or just dont want to be alone. i do, actually. a lot of time. i am scared to be alone. it just feels weird. i never went shopping alone until i was in design school. coz most of my little friends have different timetable and cannot accomodate to mine, so i naturally end up doing stuff by myself. i still feel out of place when i have lunch alone, in school, fast food place, but i soon got to that when school canteen dont have tables like in secondary school. they seat only four. and the people who ask me for lunch have four plus me five, so i feel quite awkward and left out. so i decide not to have lunch with them anyway, especially when i can help it. i go out by myself talking to myself, inviting strange glares from outsiders, something i got quite used to. perhaps that's why i feel comfortable smiling to strangers. i cant stand loneliness. i dont like long silence. especially if i am walking with you and if you and i cant walk side by side, and dont talk at all, it feels strange to me and i will be dying to get out of that weird circumstance, even if i like you. so after all that stuff.. hey, i am sorry. i just feel weird coz you dont talk and i dont know what to say. i dont know why i apologize, but i think that i shouldnt have done that. actually i would really love the company because it was a good half hour before my stuff was ready. sighz. i am so sorry. i hope you have enjoyed yourself after i am not there. haha. i am sure you did. be a good kid kaez. dont get into trouble. grinz. ssshh....
i am blogging again. haha. this is for angelene, chwee ying and hedges. in short. giges.
you guys wanna know what i want for my birthday right.. so here goes a list, take your pick. 1. holga 2. a book called hilhaven lodge 3. any tshirts from fresh imp, fourskin, graniph,etc. no giordano lah!!! 4. a beautiful life by kevyn aucoin 5. idN my favourite conference tickets. 6. don mccullin heart of darkness 7. the waterbottle we were talking about.. hehee. kaez. actually the list is longer. but i shortlisted liaoz. haha. it's further shortlisted with italics. hahahhahaha. thank you ah. hehe.
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it goes toot.. toot.. toot.. toot... doreen's gonna kill me for being late for enrolment service rehearsal.
damn.. i am sooo tired that i just wanna sleep. but got to do stuff for jianfu first. me and my big mouth. sighz. kaez.. i am doing this with joy =)
praise the Lord. sixteen-o-two is taking me!! the boss is sooooo cool!! AUNTIE DORIS, YOU ROCK!!! anyone for carrot cake at suntec city on monday? i need company. call me. my treat! my photography instructor from sunprints is soooooooooo sweet. if i had not known him from school, i would fall in love with him.. haha. i am crazy. edwin and partner.. you two are sure a scandalous pair. hahaha. i miss someone. but i dont know who. i would miss YE this sunday. who's leading worship? and who's speaking? i dont think i can join the combined fellowship thingy. coz of enrolment service. servanthood involves sacrifice. i am going off. i think i am blogging too much.
if sixteen-o-two doesnt want me tomorrow, i will go for winson and terry. i am glad i have alternative. yea! pray for me, interview's tomorrow :)
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sat. supposed to go for VIC. didnt wanna go so early. so went out for dinner with sarah's cell. boy, they are funny, they go all the way to holland V for burger king. but that's good too.. coz i met joanna!!! it was fun going out with them. hehe. sun. went to botanic gardens. nicholas chee, our instructor is soooooooooo nice. he's such a sweet guy. i always thought he was very mean, but i was wrong, for one whole year. did sharing. was so scared. but i am very glad that i am done with that. i hope ian is done with his BS stuff. it sure didnt help very much with titus giving that kind of "can hurry up, i am trying to look attentive" look. thanks for the encouragment, shu, amanda, myrtle... went to VIC at campsite. i went there to eat. everyone was so busy to entertain me. so i entertained them instead. i chaired a committee in the camp. instructors' welfare committee. with the motto, we seek to serve. sighz. it was stupid now that i think of it. all i did was make ice milo, serve them cold water, wash dishes. actually that's what i always do in RC camp. monday. morning i stayed in camp to rot. made fun of the trainees. i always do that too. haha. went to school for a lousy lesson. then went back, with good food for myself. food that any trainees cook is inedible. to me, at least. they had mass dance practice, it's so funny, all of them were like, ma'am, you must sit here so you can see * and *'s butts. am i such a pervert? haha. they danced well.. and then, that's it lah. campfire that night. so must prepare food. pretty disgusting the way they did it but, aiyah.. never mind lah. as long as they had fun. campfire is funny and nice, but tooooo draggy. i like the willam hung impersonation. it was well done. it stopped the meeting that was going on upstairs. so many scandals in the camp. haha. edwin, bribe me, if not ian will know. hahaha. nothing much lah. tuesday. skipped 3 classes. hahaha. was DI. but the mood was already fun. after discussing toilets and shit from dinner to breakfast. i hope they had fun with me too. we went to east coast park, then back to play captain's ball and other lame games. public speaking lesson. i cried in that class. i thought about my family. it's kinda weird, but i cried. debrief.. yea. finally we were leaving the campsite. they were happy too. haha. had dinner with my family. it was grandpa's birthday. woohoo~ happy birthday!!! we had a good dinner with lots of people. a pity my second brother had to be in camp. i like family gathering. my dad was there too! yea! wednesday. went to school, felt like sleeping. i hate people who is temperamental. i left straight after the talk. feel that entertaining you is just wasting my life. didnt manage to meet my cell. i met the giges instead. was fun but dinner was expensive. we really ought to do this more often. kaez. i must get to school now. i am gonna be late again....  |