birthday list

i am a very emotional and sentimental person. i see the need to explain my actions. and sometimes, it's uncalled for. i am very tired but i cant seem to fall alseep. i feel very miserable but the tears have gone missing. i dont want to tell you coz you will laugh at me then stop because you see me cry. i expected it but i cant accept it. i am dwelling in my own misfortunes. i dont understand why am i so upset. it's so trivial a matter. i am totally not at peace with myself. i crave attention yet want to remain in solitude. i am someone who contradicts myself. i have said that i am contented with the monotony of life. i have been lying to myself. i am tragic person for now. give me time. i will bounce back. i will be stronger. let me find comfort in my God and loved ones for now. if you dont see me for a while, dont worry, i am fine. if you are going to pray for me, dont, pray for rowena's father instead. she covets your prayer. pray that God will be in control of their situation and that He will be merciful. i hurt my finger yesterday, my knee today. but none can be compared to the pain inside. i feel so silly. anyone wants to go to sentosa later? enjoy the breeze and the sun. no worries if you are not interested, i am not exactly a nice person to hang out with. i better get used to talking to myself again. i havent been doing that for a while. God Bless.

thank you for the slap to reality. reality is harsh and i should have listened to you.

havent felt like this for a long time. i just cant bring myself to do anything. my head's throbbing like crazy and i seem to have lost control over my limbs and i feel like i am stuck in that moment, the moment that i do not want to be in.

reality is like a slap in the face.

i feel like slapping myself now.

hahaas. aunite doris came today. and i guess she must be glad that boss is not free to talk to her.

some auntie gave me a scare at the mrt station today. i got so startled that i crossed the road blindly and almost got knocked down by a bus.

i blog everyday coz i am so bored. i got no life other than work.

i skipped lunch today. sighz. i was starving like anything. coz of a CD.

work is crazy today. as usual. today extremely bad for shifuie and ro mama.

i feel so bad towards ro. coz she got scolding again because of me.

i wonder when is peggy coming. hahahas. looking forward.

will spend the weekend on my school project.

angelene is going overseas today. pray for journey mercy.

i cut myself today and i didnt realise until juann told me.

i am the official most clumsy person at the office.

i dont mind staying the office after work when i have no work. hahas. it's like hanging around in the studio after class and hanging around in church after YE.

hahahas.

i mixed up the names of the two cats. fat cat = sugar. black cat = gizmos. no wonder they have been ignoring me.

edwin gave me a lift today. hahahs. his ah beng's car.

woohoo~

TGIF!!!!

praise God for lots of blessings.

cant type with my index finger on the right hand. it hurts. *kisses it*

i have thirty one minus two working days. ladeedar~

life is kinda routine these days. wake at seven sleep at ten.

jogging anyone? tomorrow? i am becoming fatter.

i am kinda angry at someone. bleh. shant talk to him for a long long time.

i dont wanna go for camps during june. i wanna do my work.

i hate camps. i dont like the toilets there. i dont like to bathe there. i dont like the bed. i hate the smell. i miss the cats. i hate the lizards. i dont like the mrt. i dont like waiting for the bus 42. sighz. i am such a bitch. total bitch.

wash up and sleep.

we rant so much at the workplace and i learnt how to take it easy.

loveya, the bitch.

hahahaas.

boss didnt come late. in fact. early. very early. scary.

i think i look forward to auntie doris coming to my workplace tomorrow. but i dont want to "know" her or for her to "know" me for some unknown reasons. maybe it's just weird when you know the student and she calls her doris while you call her auntieeeeeeeeee doris. yah lah. that's all lah.

hahahahhas.

peggy is my liaison officer. hahas. i think it's like real nice. and i thought about it. when i open the door for her, i will pass her this note.

hey peggy.
be careful when you enter the office.
dont give her recommendations.
you do not want to ruin your student's life.

hahahs.

lol~

i am crazy.

edwin (our copywriter) actually wrote a short little book. he signed in my copy. hahas. it's so sweet. it was so sad when little ben had to leave the mum. but i think it's more sad for the mum coz she lost sam and the father. sighz. will read it again.

i actually stayed back a while to "laugh" with them. hahahhas. they say i laugh very easily. ahhahaahas. i enjoy their company. they are really nice people.

i was so scared when i finished the india brochure late. i was so worried that ro mama will get into trouble for being late in meeting the client. thank goodness she didnt.

i am kinda tempted to go for the xian/shanghai tour coz it means getting out of the office for a while and my fav lecturer is going. hahahs. but no bread lah. sponsers, anyone?

i called kin while at work this morning. it's so nice to talk to him coz he's so nice. hahahs. was complaining whining begging and making a nuisance. and he had the patience to listen. no wonder everyone likes him. he's so nice. all the way from the start. thank you!!! he's so sweet right. hahahas. that's what everyone thinks.

oh yah. i have to laugh for this. hahahahhahahahahas. i thought i was bad enough using freehand 9 and illustrator 8 and photoshop 5.5. but some people are in worse state than me. hahahahhahas. laugh man, people! feel my joy. li en (insert laughs here) .

will go pass angie the stuff during lunch tomorrow. i hope i have time.

i am supposed to toast some CD.

junie is now my shifu. thank you lots for your help!!!!!!

they think my taste in music is terrible. hahahs.

i am in a good mood now. maybe coz i can sleep now and not worry about waking up early.

i think i bring my phone to work just to wait for peggy's call. hahahas.

no one calls or message and that's quite sad. today i only received one. and that's a message that randy sent to the wrong person. so tragic. but then, if you dont mean your messages, then might as well dont message.

people in my office are really obessed with weighing themselves. before they start work, before going to the loo and after, before and after lunch. after working for a while. before eating sweets. if they are free or not free. hahahahahahhahas. they are crazeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. like moi. maybe that's why i like them so much.

hahahahhas. just wanna laugh.

i miss my grandparents. hope i can go down tomorrow.

i love my mama and dada and my family. but it feels so weird to say that. esp to my dad. coz he's always been the strict one in the family and he always scolds me for my messy stuff.

lalalallalaa~ shall stop now.

loveyalots,shirley.

thirty three minus two days left.

can go to work late tomorrow coz boss is coming in late.

we went for lunch with boss.

auntie doris is coming to the office on thursday. but i will pretend not to know her. so i will say, 'hi i am shirley. the intern from temasek poly. nice to meet ya.' think i wont do that. i will just keep quiet.

work and more work.

sighz.

thank God for junie. if not i will never get home today.

hope rowena is better.

i crave for some rest and dinner and the email from kin and nancy.

have you ever wondered if you slept early you will be able to wake up early too? i am not convinced but i will believe that for the time being.

going to bed. not doing work. sighz.

i hate india.

oops. not really exactly. but it's the same kinda feeling as OAG. sighz. and malaysia airlines too.

ma lai xi ya hang kong gong si.

i desire to laugh like li en.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAAAAAAAAAAAHAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i kinda miss that laughter already.

work is boring but thank you junie for staying back with me and offering to stay back with me tomorrow. i will work really really hard tomorrow so that we both dont have to do OT kaez. thanks a lot. i think i really learnt lots from you.

and rowena is sick. ever since i went into the company, three out of seven people have fallen sick.

i hope i can get sick too. so that i will be on mc. two days is enough. really. i got thirty four more days to work minus two off days for the conference. i am really glad that i am going for the conference.

i really miss those days that i can sit in front of the comp and work through the night and do good stuff. seems that i cant anymore. i am falling asleep now.

nitez.

i have this feeling that rach is going to kill me anytime. i keep forgetting to print the lyrics out for her. i am sorry dear. i am such a scatterbrain. no excuses for that. i buy you drinks the next time we go to the kopitiam to chi fan kaez?

shu, amanda, sarah, charissa, cass, li en, mel, rach, audrey, deb, shuying, martin... and the rest of ya.. study hard for your exams kaez. and cass and li en.. can you guys be normal? and stop your scary laughing.. but they make me laugh too. haas.

i think i was rude today. i am sorry. see, i always manage to offend someone every week. hahas.

i am tired.

i hate oag and bollywood and india. coz i am doing stuff on them.

will rest first before watching tv then work.

i am having this really bad pimple. but not as bad as sarah's. hahahaas.

thankies amanda dearie for the rose and the candy.