the time from the last post to this is incredibly short. but who cares what thrash i wrote. anyway. yesterdays highlight was about devilrobots and takeshi ikegami. hahas. am going to enjoy myself today, but first i gotta wake up.
sexy change~ i love the above line. i really miss the thousand flashes that went off yesterday. and i really enjoyed the sequence gollum played the guitar. i love my mum =) Enter into his gates with thanksgiving, and into his courts with praise: be thankful unto him, and bless his name. Psalm 100:4 thank you dear Lord for this wonderful day. cheers
HAVE YOU SEEN THOUSANDS OF CAMERA FLASHES AT ONE TIME IN A DARK ROOM? IT'S STUNNING. AMAZING. BEAUTIFUL. WORDS CANT DESCRIBE. THANKS ABAKE FOR THAT EXPERIENCE.
I AM REALLY TIRED. AND AS YOU CAN SEE, THIS IS IN CAPS. VERY BAD TYPOGRAPHY, BAD ARRANGEMENT OF TYPE, BUT LIKE I CARE. THIS IS ME, FOR NOW. WOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~ THIS FEELS SO LI EN. SO NOISY. BUT LOVABLE NOISE. I THINK TODAY JUST REINFORCE THE POINT ABOUT PEOPLE BEING DISAPPOINTMENT. NOT ONE PERSON KINDA THING BUT IT'S ABOUT MANY MANY PEOPLE AND THE MANY MANY PEOPLE THAT I LOVE. THAT'S WHY IT MATTERED EXTRA TO ME. BUT ANGER DOES NOT LAST LONG FOR ME. WILL GET ANGRY FOR A WHILE BUT THEN YOU CANT BE ANGRY FOR TOO LONG, IT ROBS THE SOUL. SOMETIMES I AM JUST BEING SARCASTIC. SOMETIMES I JUST HATE BEING INTERUPPTED. MUM'S SO SWEET. SHE BOUGHT ME DINNER FOR THE FEAR THAT I MIGHT HAVE TO EAT INSTANT NOODLES AGAIN. REALLY WANTED TO HEAD DOWN FOR THE PARTY TONIGHT BUT THERE'S NO ONE WHO'S INTERESTED ENOUGH. SIGHZ. BUT AT LEAST LEYANNE GOT THE FREE PASSES. AT LEAST IT'S NOT WASTED. DO YOU THINK THEY WILL GET THE AUTOGRAPH FOR ME? NAH. I DONT THINK SO. THEY WILL BE TOO BUSY ENJOYING THEMSELVES. ANYWAYS. NO ONE BOTHERED TO LOOK INTO THE RECRUIT SECTION. HAHAHS. NEVER MIND. I HAD LOTS OF JOY DOING SO. I SHOWED MY GRANDPA, GRANDMA, UNCLES. ANYWAY, IT WAS THRILLING TODAY AT THE CONFERENCE. I SHOOK HANDS WITH TAKESHI IKEGAMI!!!! HE'S NOT SOME JAPANESE PORN STAR NOT THAT I KNOW ANY BUT HE'S ONE OF THE DEVILROBOTS, MY FAV ONE. THE CREATORS OF TOFU OYAKO. HAHAHAS. I GOT THE DEVILROBOTS AUTOGRAPH. AND THAT'S WORTH MORE THAN DECADES FREE TOFU. HAHAHHS. I FELT LIKE A FAN GOING AFTER THEIR FAV STAR AND MY HANDS TURNED COLD AND MY HEART WAS BEATING SO FAST. IT'S REALLY EXCITING. CONFERENCE WAS REALLY INSPIRATIONAL. PERHAPS JUST FOR ME, COZ I SAW LOTS OF UNINTERESTED PEOPLE. THOUGH I COULDNT UNDERSTAND ALOT OF THINGS BECAUSE OF ACCENTS AND STUFF, LOOKING THROUGH GOOD WORKS WAS JUST GOOD ENOUGH. REALLY. THERE WERE SO MANY GOOD WORKS FROM NAMES THAT I DIDNT KNOW BEFORE AND REGRET IT SO. ALAN CHAN, MOTHER, LORD OF THE RINGTONES. THAT'S A FUNNY ONE. I KNEW DEVILROBOT, THE STUDIO, WETA DIGITAL, I AM SO INSPIRED BY HIM TO WATCH THE LOTR TRILOGY AGAIN, ILM, FEATURED IN THE PAPERS ONE DAY BEFORE THE CONFERENCE, WHO ELSE. JAMES JARVIS. HE IS ONE COOL ILLUSTRATOR. WAS HE THE ONLY ILLUSTRATOR, I DONT KNOW BUT THE WAY HE DOES HIS WORKS AND HIS CONVICTION FOR HIS WORK AND HIS STYLE TOUCHED ME. AND IT WAS BEAUTIFUL IN A STRANGE SENSE. AND HE SAID SOMETHING ABOUT EMBRACING INCONSISTENCY AND LIVING WITH IT IS A MIGHTY STRONG LESSON FOR ME. ABAKE AS MENTIONED BEFORE. LESLIE KEE. GOT HIS AUTOGRAPH TOO. HOW COULD i FORGET BROTHERSFREE. THINK THERE'S MORE, BUT I AM SLEEPY SO I SHALL END THIS QUICK. AFTER MARVELLING AT SUCH BIG NAMES AND THE WONDERS OF THEIR WORKS, INCOMPARABLE TO GOD'S WORKS, OF COURSE, I FEEL SO INSIGNIFICANT AND SMALL BUT AM INSPIRED TO DO MY OWN THING. CONCEPTS ARE FLOATING AROUND IN THE HEAD BUT LAZY ME WILL JUST SIT ON IT TILL THE END OF TIME. SEXY change~ conference was really great. and i think most people will just start reading from this line coz CAPS is so difficult to read and so unlike my style. but i am gonna embrace new things and ideas and work really really hard from today. thanks to mum for the dinner that's not eaten, sorry to eric for being rude, thanks to my grandparents and uncles for sharing my joy, and no, i am not dying this minute and leaving my legacy but really really appreciate this people and sorry to those that i have been mean to. being interuppted sucks and doing it repeatedly is disgusting. no, i am not refering to anyone. it's just like you on my blog, it could be no one, someone, everyone, my imaginery friend. hahahahahhas. devilrobots made my day and if i got the money. i will buy every one of their figurines. especially tofu oyako. sighz. if only someone will show up with a ticket to the ten tenors for me... have you seen gollum from LOTR playing the electric guitar? i did.
ok. should i go to grandma's house before going for the IdN thingy or vice versa.
what's at grandma's house: 1. today's ST papers 2. my new waterbottle why am i considering for so long: 1. to get to expo, i have to take NEL from farrer park to dhobby ghaut then change to city hall then change to the east west line. if i dont go to my grandma's house: 1. i will feel uneasy 2. i will reach expo really early if i go to my grandma's house: 1. i could be a little late and then have to rush. sighz. decisions. hahahhhaas. will go to my grandma's place. now i got my bottle, if only someone would get that bitten apple for me with a caesar salad. hahahas. angelene: unfortunately i know more than one person.
short sentences. i am really hungry. had no breakfast, no lunch and now, instant noodle. dont wanna talk about it.
it's so amazing to see someone whom you read his blog for a long time. it's like things turning into reality. nick pan of nickpan.com has turned into non fiction for me. and it's kinda exciting. hahas conference was not bad. no expectations, therefore no disappointments but lots of inspirations. i hate latecoming. not the once/twice kind but the everytime you have to be late kind. without apology, it's absolutely disgusting. people are a disappointment. company, wrong company is undesirable. for that i wont complain of solitude anymore. felt bad about two off days. hope they were fine and have a good weekend. really inspired by the studio's presentation and seeing the creators of my fav to-fu oyako is so funkeh. and i kinda like the host? i wonder do you call him the host. he is so funny and interesting. wont blog about the conference because alot of people will be doing that. read the ST classified ads tomorrow. in executive position. the ugliest ad belongs to me. tell me if you got it right. i just learnt to put pictures on blogger. i am sorry i am slow but i learn, dont i? mel and jf, thanks for the company. really grateful. sorry to make you guys waste five bucks. mz sir and da jie. loved the dinner. budget or not, it's certainly the people that mattered. mum was talking to me. i delibrately ignored her. she refuses to let me think the way i want to think. reality is harsh i feel. but i think she knows how i feel, so she didnt want to force it on me. i didnt want to speak because i wanted her to know that i respect her a lot and i dont want to make her angry. the pic, is my grandma. she was helping me with stuff. she's so nice. that's why my life revolves around two women. mum and her mum. for a while i am feeling happy. i like the above picture. not that the people are particularly stunning but i like the feeling of the picture. took this long time ago. checked my recent pictures, it's all documentation and projects. i like the way that ian and ben sits so far apart yet is actually so near. and i think ian refuses to entertain all my crappy tags on his board. sorry man. didnt mean to spam. hahas. *disclaimer: please do not comment on the photography. i am no photographer. just wanna capture faces.
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. . . o . . . y is? something i crave for. something that i think doesnt come easy. something that i have received but not felt. 1 Thessalonians 5 16 Rejoice evermore.
everyone in the office is pms-sing. and i am the mock up kid. feeling quite sad. and i am not sure why. and i think that's the saddest thing. i think being competent in the job is a kind of professionalism and i am not able to carry out my work effectively. i feel quite tragic. i dont want to be a nuisance at where i am working but somehow what we learn in school is not useful sometimes. was eating my orange just now. kinda fun. i like cutting oranges in that way, but not many people appreciate it or have the time to eat it that way. hahas. i wonder why people are always in such rush. i think i need to learn to manage my time better. i long for some company. but then again, no one seems to be very free. tragic. meaningless, aint it? life, that is. got to go. will be back later.
back. after a long while. hahas. we ended up eating fish food and laughing then rushing the ad. i wont even call it an ad. it's a no brainer. crap. but at least it's gonna appear on newspaper and that's exciting enough. didnt do it by myself but i did assist in it and i am gonna ask my shifu can i put it in my portfolio saying that i assisted in part of it. this weekend is gonna be exciting. two crappy ads of mine is gonna appear on the papers. at least i am not toasting CDs everyday. i ought to do some of my personal project. i called kin today again. i think he hates me lots for calling so often. but i called to thank him today and that's only manners. lene's coming back tomorrow and it will be nice to see her again. shall call her friday morning. miss that girl. i think it's difficult to be satisfied with what we already have. went window shopping today. really wanted to buy some hand accesories, but nothing's really nice or worth the money. saw some nice shoes and hoped there were mine and i still desire for the crumpler backpack. but they are just too costly and i am glad that i am not buying them. i guess that's part of growing up. i am kinda broke. spending a lot on dinners ever since my birthday. shall eat expensive stuff for a while. hon owes me seventy five dollars. i am not being petty but that's my money and i ought to get it back. see. i am trying to rationalize what i think. that's bad. i am sad. hahas. lene is back before i post this entry. WELCOME BACK DEAR!! called someone just now. i like talking on the phone actually. talking to ruiying in smps, denise and angel in cgs, they were the only people i frequently talked to on the phone and seriously appreciate the conversation after that. mingzong sir is a very nice person to talk to too. kin is nice too. cheers. but i dont call that often coz i need the other person to initiate the conversation. hahas. thanks shu and charissa for the comments. it's been long since people left comments. love ya lots. am wearing the shirt from rach today. so comfy. thanks girl =) i will just go on being sad till i find the moment to enjoy =) i am so glad that there is something called love.
i just saw justin's grades. oh man. how badly have i done. i know there's no end to comparisions but you got to know where you stand. i am like at least two A grades away from him in the GPA. no one else posted results recently. haha. when next semester starts, i am going stop all activities. no hanging out after school in the studio, no more red cross, no more gb (how am i going to explain to doreen), no more drinks session though i dont drink, no more life. is that what i really want? can i really do it? will i do it? i want good grades. but is it that important? without talent i think it's important to work harder. but how much harder to compensate for the lack of talents. for now, i will just work hard at work. wont make any promises first lest i break them. how i wish my bro will really buy that apple that i really want. but he works hard to earn his own money. think he wont. part of me hope he wont coz i will be greedy and ask for more stuff.. say nikon d70, hasselblad xpanII, a holga, LCA, the list is endless. i got to work to buy the things i want. feeling sad again. but it will go. logistics ad not done yet and it will have to be published soon.
for a while i am torn between feeling joy and being upset. for a while i am torn between passion and principles. for a while, i feel like going out to shoot. anyone free? would love company, how about sunday? but loneliness is fine too. maybe. i guess. i miss someone. heartache. the feeling is weird. it’s been a while. a sense of nostalgic i guess. quoted from ms ros. sorry i didnt ask for permission. i feel quite the same actually. *grin do you think i will ever find a friend? silly question, i forgot i have one =) praise Him!
are the words very small? i like it. i like very tight leading and kerning and very small text. and no paragraohing. but boss hates it. she cannot breathe and read. i am glad that i dont have to toast CDs everyday. imagine reporting to work at nine and you toast CDs all the way till six thirty with an hour for break. no bates. i am satisfied with sixteenotwo. i like a mass of text. it draws attention. i like small fonts with a contrasty big white background. it creates a spotlight for the small headlines. am wearing my charlie darkroom shirt. no smell anymore. i miss spending time in the darkroom. i like the blacks and the red. the oranges and greys. i miss the friendship fostered in there. i miss the seniors. ben, songnian, ming, hanxiong... i am scared of them. but i like seeing them there. i miss derek. that old man is just so funkeh. i miss the silly things i do in the darkroom. i wrote a note to someone i dont know. the note was written on twelfth april twenty o three. it says, what you have written is beautiful, but you cant define times aint it? there is a time for everything. sounds silly. hahas. wearing the shirt makes me think of mr ng too. hey how are you? you changed your mail and i lost your contacts. sigh. ian. i work hard during work kaez. and play only when i am free. it's just i am scared of people suddenly appearing behind me. it freaks me out. how many shirleys does john knows ah? enlighten please. anyways. i am only nineteen. and twenty something days old. so he cant be refering to me. good. anyways. denise. how are you? i miss you. happy mama's day to you too. you have been a great mom for the years in secondary school. rach!! i love you too. i love the hugs you give me on sundays. they make me smile too. *grin
that was being emotional. not depression. hahas. i am laughing again. that letter D really bothered me. yah. i was bothered by grades. funny aint it. afterall i am a slacker. it actually took me a whole day to get over it. vanity of vanities. i actually skimmed through the whole diploma show when i was looking forward to it. there was just too many people. i think i will be able to graduate next year. if the same situation happens next year, just drop your card and see my work, i wont be hanging around there suffocating myself to death. i wonder what is moses and maybe hon thinking about. hon still owes me seventy five bucks and i owe shu money too. have been inspired by the planet love thingy i went for alone. thanks edwin. and also enlightened by rev ng. perhaps that's how i found my smile. thanks li en and stephanie. when i see you guys, i cant help but smile too. family dinner again. that's just too much. a whole week of dieting is ruined by today. hahas. mother's day today. happy mama's day to my mum, my grandma, to auntie doris, to mel mum and ro mama. i always give my mama's day card one day late to remind my mum that everyday should be mama's day. nothing special, but i painted her nails for her. i think she likes it. though i am really bad at that.
thank you Lord for my mum and her dedication to the family. thank you Lord for the mum that gave me my mother. their love and care for the family is without thought one of the most important pillars of the family. dear Lord, please give them joy and strength to face the difficulties of each day. amen. i see the meaning of tomorrow. and the reason is love. cheers to tomorrow.  |