+oui. i am back from camp!
back from camp. national camp 2004. hope my little babies are having a good rest. its kinda different from the 2000 one. i've got lots to say. thank you to the first aiders who looked after me though i was such a fake casualty most of the time. thanks david, huda, shuhui, winnie, xinyan, michelle, pamela, lam lam, angela, kenneth, zhuoyi (hope i have got his name right), lutfi. thanks guys, i hope i have got all the names i want to have here. i am sorry if i was harsh sometimes. especially those whose names is not here. your attitude can be quite bad and your skills arent that good exactly. the rashes part looks very ugly now and the bites are itchy. and i am really sorry for the incident during campfire night. and thank God that huda is understanding enough to know that its the silly senior that made the mistake. screwups:checked yah. plenty of them. but i think i should have reacted in a more mature manner. like the conversation with eng kee and jf papa, our norms are others expectations. but i think i would not want to associate too much with the blue shirts in a higher level next time. basia, faith, audrey, nancy and diviya, they are good people actually, very accomodating, perhaps its just a clash of style, but i realised that when God is the focus, things usually turn out more than well. thanks for being so nice. whee~ the next thanks must go to andy sir, john, eng kee, shirley, elaine, edwin and alfian sir. i am sorry that i such a complainy person and i really thankful that you guys still welcome me though i was in a different division. God brought back the focus in my life through this camp. i think my life is about people. i love people and He showed me the lovely people who had left prints in my life before moving on. first day of camp was a grumpy one. cos i am a sad person i guess. i saw morris at the jetty and its sucha lovely surprise. i have not seen him for the last four - five years and its definitely nice to see him again. he changed a lot, i feel, in terms of appearance. but hes still so gentle when he speak, very polite and all. maybe cos we are not close. yah. perhaps. i marvel at my abilities to recognise people. thats why i say i think people are very important in my life. they take so much place in my heart. i saw kangwei. that little kid. i missed him so much. and the boys from the ninth BB. some ULP cadets. and theres people like nelson and weirong that i met from the last national camp i went. it was like a gathering of old friends. made new friends too. cin, val, mel from npcc, rocky, mr chim, marcus, waihung... and blah blah blah. having cheeseng and gerald around is nice too. they took such good care of me. and its because of national camp that i know them and went to COGS, so it felt closer to me. cheeseng, take care of yourself hor. i missed my mom lots during the camp. my fascination for people never ends. there are a lot of them in the division that impressed me alot. their courage - overcoming heights, fears, their compassion, their abilities, their discipline, their passion for what they do. and i think thats very real to me that i need to find my passion for my first love again. .. theres a part of each one of them that i wanna be. i admired them for their childlikeness, their frank answers, their love and all these things.. i have my numbers one to eight. not many knows but its just a silly thing i did. people who fascinated me with the above were numbered one to eight. and andy sir got number ones number. hahas. its so funny. cos whenever number one appears, they will start laughing and pointing at him. i feel so stupid now. this camp got no eye candy which is quite sad. i remember junkiat from the 2000 one i went. he is so goodlooking and we always talked about him. and liza used to be his primary school partner but he went on to grow tall but liza kinda shopped growing. hahas. this is a no tears camp. for a long time i have not cried and i am so proud of myself. i almost cried when i couldnt get up the rock wall. they made it look so easy but i just couldnt get up. the rock wall just kills all my confidence as a person. from when i was fifteen till now. the instructor werent as kind and patient as choo. i promise never to touch a rock wall again. i almost cried when they didnt respond to us the way i wanted them to. its very disappointing but i also almost cried when i saw them gathering together to cheer and to have fun. its amazing. God's grace is just amazing. i was hanging out at the medical centre so often that it looked like i was working part time there. i almost cried when i helped treat some of the casualty cos most of them were crying by the time they got to med centre. i am proud of myself for cycling down the steep slope. not very steep but steep enough for me. i am proud of myself for daring to do the jetty jump though i was damn scared when i out one leg out. i am proud of myself that i dare to apologize for the things i have done wrong. sexy change~ remember this? devilrobots i saw my bro when i reached home. he is cleaning his room as he is finishing ns. for a while, i feel very comforted because i know he has probably made some plans. i think i am like him in this aspect. i clean my room when i need to make some important decisions. i ought to clean my room soon. sexy change~ to my cell group: i miss you lots! i was shocked at all the emails. pleasantly. mel, shu, amanda: we didnt get to dance at the camp but i came up with some steps on my own, compiling from all that you taught me. huijuan: will bring down the keyboard for ya in the morning instead. will be in church for GB. have a good practice. ian: they think i look like i am eighteen or below, so what does this tells you? hahahs. you okay with what happened at the worship team meeting? though i dont know what happened but it seems like you were real mad at it. take care typing this is making me tired. for your info. orangeliquidpaper is back.
+back i cant bear to do away with this post. its just like the falling in love one. a lot of people are asking for photos already. sighs. and knowing myself. hahas. i know i wont send out any. i dont think anyone really received pictures from me via email before, except maybe auntie doris. hahas. that woman. hahas. sending pictures are so inconvenient. must edit, must resize, must filter. four hundred and ten will take a lot time. wait till mantou works first. i think i found a few couples in the camp. i hope my guess is right. i am always pretty right about such stuff. maybe cos i am a peoples person. well. at least thats what cedric told me before. i didnt draw fish at all. i am gonna be so dead. and for goodness sake. i am not obessed and not desperate for number one. there are so many cuter people out there. hahas. stop it kaes. i so conveniently forgotten that i need to do mr sams work. and peggy. and tias. i miss seeing jerome. my cute french lecturer with the cute butt. i dont know whats wrong with myself. i cant seem to hold a good conversation with people. i must remember to pray. i so like this song Sunny Days/ Jars of Clay/ Sunny days keepin' the clouds away/ I think we're coming to a clearing and a brighter day/ So far away. /Still I think they say /The wait will make the heart grow stronger or fonder /I can't quite remember anyway /So if you're waitin' for love /Well it's a promise I'll keep I/f you don't mind believing that it changes everything /Then time will never matter /Winter, Spring... /is what love can truly bring /Ice turns to water, water flows to everything/ You can lose your mind, maybe then your heart you'll find /I hope you won't give up what's moving you inside /If the car won't start, when you turn the key /When the music comes on, all your cold, cold heart can do is skip a beat /It's a promise I'll keep /When you're waitin' for love/ If you don't mind believing that it changes everything /Then time will never matter my bites hurt now. and they are screaming now,"scratch me, shirley, scratch me!" some of them are already bleeding and i dont wanna scratch somemore. i wanna see someone. but the person just doesnt appear. i miss you so much already. can i ask for a favor? if you are here. leave a message. say you love shirley. hahas. i am just kidding. but please do leave a message. i dont know why. i am smiling as i type this. hahas. God has been real good. but i still need to work tomorrow. three hours before church. i dont like the way some people talk. it makes me upset. angelene/ i became darker. i suddenly miss ya so much too. cos right after national camp2000, we went for obs together. thanks for being my good friend and best enemy. because without you, i wont be me today. hahahs. i like the pink little letters. they look so pretty. loneliness can be enjoyed, but ugliness cannot be tolerated. i really miss the people that i love so much. the people who knows my obession with straight lines and nice papers. i miss the person who after dropping my history textbook must carry my bag for me for some stupid exhibition at suntec. i miss the people who laughed at me for taking so long to draw a straight line. i have become a little more brave. i dare to let people write in my book. but alas disappointment sets in almost immediately. i never like lending things because it would mean losing a friendship. indirectly. i have learnt how to tear pages out from my books to write little notes for people. maybe it will take a little longer to tear gie or to draw ugly stuff in gie. because gie is like so important. gie is like the dajie and angels wish and maybe hedges for me to do well in what i love. its like so much love is in that book. signing off with love. i miss my babies. i miss you (; +i really dont wanna end the post. hahas. yeah. angel. i am a contented child of God. i managed to convince my kids mother that three hours is too long for tuition, and so i got down for bible study. i am so happy that i did cos i learnt stuff there. and worship was high. not high like high in city harvest sort, but we manage to remember that we dance and sing and cheer because all glory goes to God. i like worship. it brings me closer to God each time we have a meaningful one. i attended bit of service worship too. was amazing too. and also sunday school. today is like, good worship day. had dinner with my family. how i wish we could just stop time there. my brother served me food. thats like so amazing. we just ate as a family, walked home together and its like so nice. my ankles still hurting and i dont know why. sighs God is good, all the time  |