+leave

on leave, i mean.

this semester means a lot to me. and i mean a lot. there will be many things i will give up to do well. some things just have to wait.

call me rotten. call me spoilt. but there are too many things i want from this semester.

try to understand.

i am graduating next semester. that leaves me with less than eighteen school weeks to graduation.

18 weeks = 126 days - 18 weekends = 94 days.

can you understand.

please refrain from calling me to tell me what i need to do.

i wont do it.

i hope you can be proud of me when i eventually do well.

i hate it when people tell me what i need to do when i am not there. its like i cant even speak up for myself. i hate it when i need to something that i dont know what is it. and you dont even have the courtesy to tell me on your own. i hate it when i try to ask and no one can tell me exactly what i need to do. i hate it when i feel for something and you have to spoil it somehow, all the time.

there are some people where i will go the extra mile to do things. you are just not one of them. i am sorry to say that. but some people will mean more than others.

i hate you. really.




+its just a weird good day

everything really turned out well. so well.

but i feel quite bad about the +what i got entry. sounds a bit mean. perhaps it was a bad day.

i am sorry.

went to church, met da jie, got the video camera from mingzong sir, went to comex, got tempted but didnt give in, saw louis sir, had dinner with nice people: mingzong sir, jianxin maam, angela maam and weiqiang sir, went to harrys with them plus lawrence sir.

thanks for the ride home.

i think mum doesnt quite like me coming home so late even though its been quite a while.

i think i prefer white to red.

quite exciting, cos i am starting on a new journal. havent been journalling for a while.

i want my guy to be able to sweep me off with the songs he sings and the music he makes.

cheers to the talented one.

cheers to the good Lord always.





+i wanna eat breakfast

i am kinda hungry and tired.

it was a long day without dinner yesterday.

but i am really happy cos i think i am pretty much on the right track for kristines class. if i work really hard on the last project, i think an A wouldnt be so much of a problem. she returned our sketchbooks and i am so glad to receive it. i think i am such a little kid.

it was really alot of work yesterday.

but the kitchen is now mine. i will go make my breakfast.

what i have lined up for today:
1.go to church to pass the nametag to my laoshi.
2.icecream. with dajie and evelyn.
3.meet mingzong sir to get stuff from him.
4.grandma's house maybe.
5.hahas.

call me if you wanna meet me today. cos today i am happy (:

do enjoy your day.

loveya.the happy contented child of God.





+what i got

i see a lot of nick from people from national camp, till now, still think camp rocks.

let me recount what i got.

1. horrible insect bites that is still bugging me now

2. warning letter from tia cos i skipped class that monday morning

3. a lot of disgruntled people telling me that they want photos and how the photo is unclear and not at a resolution high enough and this and that.

i am not trying to bitch here. but school is tough you know. with the new director and all his lame policy. damn. i need time. i only got four weeks left of school.

+sexy change

todays smiley thurday. yah. i smiled, in fact i laughed from twelve to three. we did book binding. hahas. it was hilarious. then lena cant sew and my lecturer is just way cool.

i finished visual merchandising and i have to thank that kind young man who helped me push my showcase back. its so sweet of him. really grateful though i know i can pretty much do it on my own but help is always appreciated. he has to be the nicest freshman i ever seen.

didnt get to print it. so doing it in the morning. say hi to the second warning letter.

after that wasnt that good.

i called mum after an arguement with a friend and i cried.

silly me.

for angelene. i miss you lots! i drew a lot fishy in gie. i am so happy.

sweet is my new favourite word.





+somehow God made today a little better than all the other days

God is so extremely beautiful today.

was feeling feverish but insisted on going to school cos its french today. i forgot we are watching movie today. sighs. its a good movie. but bad filming and all sort. the films not beautiful at all. but barcelona is gorgeous. i wanna go there. but i cant speak spanish. which is bad. hahas

after french was lunch and stuff. i went to east coast park with peiqi to do stuff. thanks babe. you have been a great company. you make me miss angelene more. hahas.

i drew many fishes today. yeah.

tomorrows smiley thursday. its the best day to meet me.

i got caught in the rain today. it made me feel better actually.

haha. a math equation.

peiqi+shirley+ming=heavyrain

third time already.

i got peeling lips. hahas

the work i am doing for jim is ending on a bad note. bleh. i dont wanna do stuff for syfc anymore. unless myrtle is the coordinator.





+bad sleep

havent been sleeping well. i broke out in cold sweat this morning. had a medley of dreams last night. i dreamt that the horrible mr m said that sam had comtemplated sending me a warning letter. scary.

i think i need an mc. its a bad week.

i am craving for ice cream.

i suppose i like meeting new people but i dont really like meeting up with people whom i havent kept in contact for eons and before they leave for something, they wanna meet up and you know you probably would have nothing to say. in the case of the boons, or school mates. there are some people i view as valuable, these are the people i would keep in prayer and contact, but the rest. i dont know.

i've been touched yesterday. double pun intended. i was going up in the lift to my kids house yesterday. a little boy in the lift started feeling around for things. i got scared. i hate people touching me. then i realised he is visually handicapped. so i held his hands. he said thank you. and i wonder why God made blind people. i dont understand. but i am sure He loves them as much.

For the Lord is good, and His love endures forever.