+i've been kissed
really. twice. hahas. he is cute. he got short hair. nicely tanned. not very tall. can sing but cant dance. sensitive but loves to have fun. his name is sean. he is three and a half. we did the shoot today. i guess the weather got into me and i almost lost it. tomorrow i am gonna start on funkehchicken and finish the one hundred and one problem. for now. i would like to bathe and go to sleep. when i buy my own living space. i would buy three types of container to drink from. 1. glass. tall glass. extremely essential. to drink water. coke. juice. 2. mug. for coffee. tea. and milo. 3. wine glass. for the red and white. i wanna do funkehchicken in the chad walker style. i must remember to mail john the cd. i wanna go holland village AND this ice cream place at some ulu bedok place. perhaps after submissions. i am addicted again. hahas. cheers to the people who love!
+here comes
sitting at where i am not supposed to be. doing what i am not supposed to do. just endured a horrible bus ride from bedok home. to get a camera. the least you could do is to tell me yesterday that you didnt manage to borrow one. its a chore carrying the dv, tripod, notebook plus a camera. it makes me tired. i almost cried on the bus. such a thing could have been prevented if only you made an effort. i said we needed a camera. you knew we needed one. you said you will borrow one. the least you could do is to keep the promise. or let me know. travelling makes me sick. these are all the basic things of a shoot. you make me sick.
+gie
gie is my new idea after funkychicken and orangeliquidpaper. i should be sitting in front of mantou and do the video editing. i am just very tired and feel like sleeping. i wanna talk to people. face to face and have a good conversation. but i know i dont know how to. my mom is really nice.
+be a good lover
gie got molested today. and it almost left a scar. i thought i saw one but it aint there anymore. its the first time i freaked out but didnt lash out at the person who crumpled my page. its my fav lecturer. you think i would? i am not a very open person. this is exception. this is meant to be public anyway. i write things that i dont want people to read lest they laugh at me and think i am silly. but she was snatching my book from me. thank God she cant read chinese quite well. i was just grabbing my book as fast as i can, covering what i have written and drawn. my lecturer says that gie is pretty. i am glad cos i think gie is really pretty. lindy was saying that gie is expensive. i really had a good day. i am not trying to say that church makes a person sad but getting away from the burden makes me feel better. gie is getting more personal and closer. i started writing in there. it made me happy. we talked alot in class today. it was sharing. not very intimate but its a start i guess. i enjoyed myself beyond three today and its like really amazing. sagmeister is really cool. hahas. i met him in person. the lecturers behaved worse than students during the seminar. but i think the three of them are really nice. i agree with ms low. when God is the focus. its different. i wrote a note saying that they are NOISY and one of them, being my lecturer wrote, YOU FAILED. the thing is so funny. a much needed break. i wanna be like them when i grow up. i was writing in gie before the seminar. and sam was like, you are writing this for my adcam. nah. i am sorry. hahas. i really think this is a good week. i just hope to make God the centre of my life. my kids better today. i think he really hates math. i can see it, feel it but i want him to do math still. he gets so pleased when we read or do chinese or english. we laugh a lot while reading. in chinese or english. we have a lot of fun because he doesnt know all the words and during english i will teach him how to sing some songs, like, row row row your boat, gently down the stream. when you see a crocodile, remember to scream. hahas. i always hate coordinating meetings. it always turns out bad. but today i messaged a whole bunch of people for meeting. and guess what. eight out of eight people can make it at the time. whoa. i am impressed with God. for someone who made us at His pleasure. He sure takes alot of effort. its amazing. i have nothing to say actually. i am crapping a lot here. Speak - say the words that no one else will ever say/Love - love like the world we know is over in a day/I'm gonna show you love in every language/I'm gonna speak with words that need no form/I'm gonna give you what you never had before/You're beautiful and I am weakened by the force of your eyes/So shine bright to separate the truth from the lies/I'm gonna show you love/I'm gonna show you love in every language/I'm gonna speak with words that need no form/I'm gonna give you what you never had before/So tie me to a tree and let the smoke and ash collect/No, I won't regret to let love do what love will let/We can drown in mixed emotions or walk across an angry sea/This is the cost of being free/I'm gonna show you love in every language/I'm gonna speak with words that need no form/I'm gonna give you what you never had before - show you love
+where is angelene?
i was trying to finish the aloe vera at the bottom of my cup. since the apple juice was gone, it had refused to come out. i had to repeat my attempt at national camp. sticking my tongue to the bottom of the cup, like i tried to finish that strange black jelly thing. i think i irritated them so much that daniel lent me his spoon. hope they are fine. but friendships from camp never last. they are in my prayer list too. gie is so empty. i think i have yet to pass ten pages. i think gie is a nice name. i like french for jerome. hes so cute. he wore this big paper bow tie on monday for our practice. number threes are always not very tall yah. my number three is shorter than me. i think grass is not nice. i am switching back to food. oh. and i spent lots of money today. for a good cause. seeing randy always means nothing good. i so want to go to vietnam but its rather expensive. i so want to help them but i cant go to vietnam so i bought the postcard and the notebook. i can journal now that i have a new journal. i still wanna that red wine. auntie karfoon sent an email. about prayer request. it went to my junk mail folder. my name is up there too. i think she messaged all the people who hasnt been there. i will go back in a while. i need time. some people have been breaking my spirit and stumbling me. i need to be stronger. i need to pray and do my quiet time faithfully. i need to paint and draw too. thank God for sagmeister. and this is so pretty. lovely. http://www.theartworksinc.com/folio/gibb/gibb10.htm any prayer requests?
+back
back to face reality. i could do with a little more courage though. rubbish. my new favourite word. its nice to know people have fond memories of me. hahas. went back school today. its been really long. but some people never changes. ms low is still as cool. mrs teo is still as sweet. laoshi is still as nice. amazing people they are. but you can see all them have aged. mr lim especially. hahas. had a nice talk with some of them. even mrs poey. weird. it feels so strange sitting in the principals office. i wont do that in ms chews time for sure. almost blew up at my kid. but i know i cant do that. its such a strange day. i saw webster and keith at the seveneleven near my place. my place is like for the totally uncool. i wonder why were they there. i saw hi though. i wanna get a couple of new toys. but i know they have to wait. hahas. its been a good day. i found this somewhere: 'tis bitter cold. and i am sick at heart. -Francisco (Hamlet)
+away
running away. i think i got no courage to face a lot of things. and what comes to mind first is to run. run far far away. i just want to isolate myself. i feel so burdened lately. i feel so tempted to open that bottle of red wine and just enjoy myself. but theres school tomorrow and no company. some people say they will listen but they never really is there. i am thankful for those who has been listening. thank you angel and kinsing and dajie. if you see me attempting to buy food next month, please stop me, cos i am supposed to be eating grass for the whole of next month. guess what i bought today: watercolour paper and watercolour! on top of the whole fifteen sheets of A0 kraft paper i bought on saturday. but i wanna go to holland village. and that starbucks. and underwater world. gige=thefourofus gie=yellowsketchbook gge=thefourofus-Iwhoisinaussieland gge might meet next week cos the second g is free. will the big g be free? cos the e will make time. and we will think of i. so shall we go holland village? gige will be five years old right,this december eighteen? to quote that little fellow, maybe we are really old liao... cheers to the people who knows how to hug!  |