birthday list

+coke makes me happy

for da jie. i will type in the date and time of each post. septemeber eighteen. seven twenty three.

this is the first waking hour that i am not delirious. and i found enough strength to sit up for more than five minutes. yea!

shu: *hugs* nine ways a fish can scare a girl is a twisted version of how my brothers fishes always scare me. and i am sorta doing it for my project. i miss you. though its just one week i dont see you. and the minute i type the previous sentence, you message me on msn.

angelene: hows the exam? *hugs* you must take care kaes. and i so look forward to you coming back.

da jie: ntu dont make people sick. and dont make it seems like its your fault that i am sick. my immune system is probably down already and my body couldnt take the stress of a new place, so thats why i am sick. but i am okay now already. and i wanna tell you i enjoyed being at your hostel yesterday. its like so much fun. and i am sorry for imposing on your and your roommate and your neighbours. they are really kind and considerate and very fun to be with. i now know why you have so much fun at hostel. now i know who is who. tell me more about them next time we meet up okay? and thanks for the panadol and waiting for the bus with me and the gold uno champ medal and thank your roomie for lowering the music when i was sleeping kaes.

kinsing: thanks for the encouraging messages in the comment always (: you must have confidence in yourself for your math. stay calm and do it slowly.

evelyn: sorry to have to cancel the icecream meeting today.

engkee: sorry we have to cancel the icecream meeting today.

yea, i am going for dinner. i am so hungry. had only a slice of bread today!

dear angelene,
i dont like replying to the 888888 thingy. so heres my reply. no. that lousy poem wont see daylight here. its a sad poem. and i dont quite like it. i like one line though, the Lord who made the joy sees the pain. i hope i am grammatically correct. you are running out on your sixteen hours. you take care yah. and finish your paper fast. thats about it. y'know, you feel so much nearer than so many people. i thank God for a friend like you. be glad cos i think i dont wanna make too many friends. ha ha. people are scary. i better get down to drawing. loveya.

+wants

y'know what. i really want to get that LCA. but at three hundred sgd. its just not worth the price for a cheap plastic camera.

i am going to get new glasses. no more armani. i hate the common-ness of this pair.

group project is destestable with a capital D.

lecturer gone fishing so todays thursdays not that smiley.

but friday will be better.

ha ha.

+thank you

i have decided to snap out of my depression and stop wallowing in my own misery.

i read a testimonial, not the friendster type, and i was touched by the courage of a fourteen year old.

i cannot fathom all of God's plan but it does not make Him lesser of a God.

in my high spirits, i wrote a poem today. its pretty lousy but i take pride in it.

if i am disciplined this weekend, i will illustrate it and hand in for my class.

otherwise i will just do nine ways a fish can scare a girl.

so many people have been kind: da jie who called to see if i am okay. angel. people who left msg on my blog: gerald, andrew, engkee. and all the hugs i got on sunday: amanda, shu, melly, rachel, doris and josephine. they warm my heart.

i thought of something just now. but i forgot. i am becoming forgetful. its bad.

and i owe it to ian that i managed to finish this on the spot french assignment. can i engage you as a tutor for this coming sunday?

+learnt my lesson

never drink in the middle of a school day in school at the beginning of the week on an empty stomach.

its a long lesson to learn. but learn it well.

we were shooting red wine today. its about pouring it into a glass. we decided not to waste it. so we drank it. half a bottle. between two person.

now i know i cant go beyond the third glass.

and now i feel sick.

sighs.

i wanna sleep.

i am fine. really. thank you.

we should go for icecream soon da jie.

how about gelare at east coast this sat?

thanks gige.

+James 1:2-3

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverence. Perseverence must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does."

+radiance

she is a little girl i met. for just three minutes. and shes the only one that left a mark in gie (other than my lecturer who molested gie and left a scar). she put a little joy in the heart that is sorrowful.

if there can be only one thing that i can do, i dont wanna make new friends anymore.

and no. i am not okay. i am moodswingy. i get upset at every single little thing and i would just lose my temper and walk away. and it gets worse when people beat around the bush and gives you bullshit. bullshit that has no link or whatsoever makes me mad. if i dont keep quiet i will just slap everyone at the table. so be glad that i kept quiet. we are trying so hard with our idea but she wants the whole world to stop at her shoes. i thought she said she wont be late. but shes still late. and i dont care for excuses.

thank you ian. for bringing me back into a time of worship. thats the purpose of our lives isnt it?

and thank you auntie jo. this woman is powerful man. she make me wanna cry because she saw beyond the laughters and see the tears.

From the rising to the setting sun
His love endures forever
By the grace of God we will carry on
His love endures forever
Sing praise, sing praise